Friday, December 30, 2011

Captain's Personal Log Stardate December 2011 Supplemental

2011 is almost done, it was a year full of heartbreak and triumph. I have learned so much and I am thankful. I plan to Do Better and not just do. No rushing but to be patient with myself and take EVERYTHING moment by moment.

Looking forward to new beginnings, changes and improvements in 2012!

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Captain's Personal Log Stardate December 2011 Supplemental

Just trying to keep my head up as I try to keep going. Just trying to keep my head down and not draw to much attention to myself.
Almost done with Vanessa and Jack's story. I am excited about my Satin Series...the holodeck is going to be very busy.
Working out is going well, like the new Fit in Six that I have been using. We'll see what happens. Gonna just keep working toward being healthy.
Trying to enjoy this down time and relax before my busy semester begins. I am excited about the externship though...wish someone would be consistent and tell me where I'll be so I can buy the appropriate attire. I guess no everything can be perfect.
I'm going to watch the analogies I use from now on....I hate confusion.
Time to get back to Love's Shelter.
End Transmission

Thursday, December 22, 2011

Captain's Personal Log Stardate December 2011

I haven't quite got into the swing of things now that classes are over but my mind has been consumed with my various characters and their stories. I am looking forward to starting my Satin Series, so much so that its getting in the way of Jack and Vanessa's story, especially since Jack is giving me all kinds of trouble. I love him though, he's trying to look out for everyone and still protect his heart.

Enjoying this time with the son is "killing" me in video games. We're supposed to be a team when we play Lego Star Wars but instead of working together he will kill me, push me off a cliff or run me over with one of his vehicles. The things my 4 yr old teaches me.

I'm still excited about how well Sudden Bloom is doing. I look forward to spinning more yarn with my interracial couples.

Thursday, December 15, 2011

Fall Semester 2011 Update

Yes, the captain has been a very bad girl...well sorta! I'm down 1.5 pounds but I haven't been as consistent with the workouts like I should be....Hey a captain must show dedication to her studies. 3 A's and 1 B! I am one year a way from graduation.

So much has happened in the last month and a half. Met the sponsor of my scholarship, she offered me an externship (I start in January). Delivered a baby and enjoyed doing postpartum care with all my patients. Attended a C-section, so glad I didn't have one of those and had an all-around excellent semester.

I attended this semester's graduating class's pinning ceremony and it was just the encouragement I needed keep me motivated...even though I've been hearing some bad stuff about the semester to come. This too shall pass.

Anyway I'm looking forward to being a mommy and wife for a few weeks then I'll be back at the craziness that comes from being in nursing school at the end of January.
Signing out for now.

Monday, October 31, 2011

Captain's Personal Log Stardate October 2011

I find it amazing that the month is over. This particular semester is moving so fast. I am amazed and having a great time! I am so looking forward to graduation next year and working full-time in Labor and Delivery. Pediatrics is still going well but my heart hurts each rotation. I was honored to be a part of each of the children's lives I worked with...but I do know that Peds is not my calling. The crying would either jade me or depress me. OB is another conversation...I can't wait to get to the hospital each rotation. I come alive and I can't wait to see what family I get to be there for.

I think I am in full bloom. Speaking of which, no that all the "errors" have been caught and repaired, Sudden Bloom is doing quite well, especially on Kindle! I love Allain and David, so much that they now have their own Twitter accounts. Of course this leads me to introduce Vanessa Kennedy and Jack Stillman. Oh I am having so much fun with them. Love's Shelter is taking shape and I am having a great time bring them together. I have a total of five to six couples I am working with. I just need to cool my jets until after finals so start bringing their adventures in love and other drama to life.

My weight loss is on a plateau right now...once I get past these two exams I hope to kick things up a notch or two. Hopefully...I'm missing my jogging and the Commander is starting to catch up to my scores!

This had been a great month. I am very thankful for all my blessings, every one!

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Captain's Log Stardate October 23, 2011Supplemental

What a week! Between studying, attending meetings, finishing resume and applying for a job its amazing I have time left to brush my teeth! I'm barely sleeping but we captains seem to be able to function on just a few hours here and there. I am loving every minute. I want to study, I want to get the information second nature and succeed.

Everyone I requested as a reference said yes, not that I had any doubts but giving out someone phone number can be a big thing.

I am finally out of money. I had hoped to not stress the Commander until December but it looks like that's not going to happen. Might have to do some quick writing very soon to be more of an help. Avon is just not helping right now. After my 3 exams I might need to pick the pen up again and get some things submitted. Not going to let it get me down...this too shall pass.

Friday, October 14, 2011

Captain's Log Stardate October 2011Supplemental

Nursing school continues to be a great level of stress and enjoyment. Writing papers isn't a "high" but being able to work with some great nurses and taking care of patients more than makes up for it. I'm getting a little nervous about my first OB exam coming up but I do hope to do well. The following week I have two more exams...the middle of the semester is usually the busiest. Had my first evaluation for OB and did well. I know my confidence level is increasing.

My workouts are not very strong right mind is just not there. I am sticking with my healthy eating and drinking my water but my brain wants to study not workout. I think once the heavier assignments are behind me I can put more focus on my workouts and not feel guilty about it.

Sudden Bloom had some challenging moments...proof reading is so VITAL to telling a story...makes a difference between a good story and a great story. I've lost a lot of sleep and probably street cred by not double checking before uploading. Not again! I will handle Jack and Vanessa with the upmost care.

Still not getting the Twitter stuff...I mean some people have 8000+...I mean really!? How in the world do you keep them interested? My life is interesting but there's not "drama"..I've still got some time before my daughter's hormones drives us all crazy..then my life will spiral in a new direction.

Must sleep 0600 comes first these days.

Monday, October 10, 2011

Captain's Log Stardate October 2011

Yes it has been awhile but keeping a crew and ship together just takes time and making sure I am up to speed on all new Star Fleet protocols takes even more time...I thought we were supposed to be Green and saving paper yet that seems to be all I filter through lately is more and more paper and then writing on paper reports that are needed at sometimes absurd deadlines.

The Commander and I celebrated #17 on the First and it was a great day. We are sometimes amazed at how quickly time passes! We look forward to getting away when this mission is over.

Alas that is all for now...want to get my outbox fuller than my inbox than maybe I can get back to concentrating on my exercise. I want to make my goal this month!

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Captain's Log Stardate 201109.28

Preparing for first 2 exams of the semester...trying not to stress too bad.

My latest couple, I'll call them V&J, have been hard to ignore recently. They are so ready for their love story to be read. They are driving me crazy. With all they are going through to be together, they better stay together! I might have to escape to the holodeck to give myself some peace.

Looking forward to a good run tomorrow after exams.....

Monday, September 26, 2011

Captain's Log Stardate 201109.26 Supplemental

The weekend was nice, quiet. Got tons of reading done, though I can't seem to focus my mind on my studies at the moment...I think I'm nervous about the first exams coming up.

Started reading Kindred by Octavia E. Butler...of course I can't seem to put it down! I'm hiding it from myself until after exams.

Trying to be patient as I wait for reviews of Sudden Bloom. Good or Bad I am glad to have written it and I look forward to telling my next story. Almost done with the outline!

Okay time to do some cardio...Ugg!

Friday, September 23, 2011

Captain's Log Stardate 201109.23 Supplemental

A Taste Of Freedom, a historical fiction - by LeichelleK

A Historical fiction. Story summary: In Pre Civil War times, some Southern slave owners engaged in different types of experimentation on their slaves. This story is about 6 slaves, Joseph, Ruth, Esther, Isaiah, Hezekiah and Jeremiah and the adventure that would change their lives.

Thursday, September 22, 2011

Captain's Log Stardate 201109.22

Sudden Bloom is now available in paperback! (Kindle version) (paperback)
Here is a description:
Allain Krisson didn't expect to lose her best friend and become a mother at twenty but that was the path her life had taken. Now she is an accomplished woman, a math professor that had raised three children on her own. She had always put her children first and was glad to skip much of the dating drama many single mothers have to deal with while trying to find love. She was ready for love and to be loved Maybe. Allain wouldn't mind a good, strong "brother" to spend her days with and sizzle her nights but at forty she just wants someone, anyone to share her life. Maybe. Her past experience with men had left her either heartbroken or cynical. Did she really want male drama in her life? She had enough drama with her college students each semester. Set up on a blind date by one of her children she is immediately taken with the handsome Australian. Their romance blossoms faster than Spring flowers after the thaw and she soon realizes that all that she ever wanted may be right before her.

David Haydon didn't expect to be divorced, disillusioned and lonely. Coming from a world renowned family he thought his life was the perfect picture of happiness. His artwork was the toast of the art world but even with all his success he was not happy. Feeling insecure after his failed first marriage he questions if he is truly ready to love and live again. Would he be able to find someone that would want to know him for the man he is and not for what his name and status can do for them? Used to the finer things in life, David abandons it all to fly under the radar by taking a position at a small software company doing graphic art. He soon befriends a coworker only to be set up on a blind date with his new friend's mother. Allain stirs in him emotions he had only imagined about while idolizing the relationship and passion his parents shared. Could this beautiful woman be the one to complete him? Can he forgive himself and be the man she needs? His love for Allain ignite like dry kindling in a Outback drought during the summer. Will their sudden bloom of love be enough to sustain a lasting love that will last for all time?

Captain's Log Stardate 201109.18 Supplemental

Sunday, September 18, 2011

Captain's Log Stardate 201109.18 Supplemental

Where in the world did the month go! I must be half in and half out of some weird time anomaly that is driving things crazy.

The Commander is still adjusting to his new shuttle, the Saturn and I am trying to adjust to my new schedule period. Did so much ripping and running last week I got more than my share of exercise in.

Exercise score: 75

New book in the works score: 100

All the away missions left me tons of time to think and make plans for my next books. Trying to get back on track with exercise. I need to help me keep thinking after all that sitting!
Time to get the crew ready for the new week.

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Captain's Log Stardate 201109.13 Supplemental

Who stole my twinkies...oh wait I don't eat twinkies.
Got the okay on my revisions for Sudden Bloom and now I'm just waiting for it to arrive and give it my thumbs up.

Today I tweeted: Anticipation is intoxicating and it is! Its kinda helping me stay motivated and though I'm behind on EVERYTHING...darn blackout last week, I am still being productive and getting things done.

I am having a challenging time coming up with 5 measurable goals for Leadership U that I am now involved in. Along with my 15 clinical hours I must complete at the end of the semester I must also complete 45 hours in leadership. Anything to help that ole resume.

I ate so healthy today I felt lighter, parking 1/2 a mile away from class is helping too. I will be glad when the temp goes down a bit so I don't have to be so sweaty!

Okay I hear my books calling my name I must answer.

Sunday, September 11, 2011

Captain's Log Stardate 201109.11 Supplemental

Well did horribly in the "organized" exercise section. Just couldn't quite get everything situated so I could workout. Of course the Blackout on Thursday through a wrench in things so some things had to be made up on Friday. I am planning on success this week. No excuses.

School is going, I am a bit overwhelmed with all I must complete but I think once the videos that are required are done I should have more time to just study and review.

Sudden Bloom, paperback version, has officially been proofread and reworked to my satisfaction. I guess I will have to invest in an editor eventually. So far 11 Kindle versions have been purchased and I am excited about writing and completing another novel soon. I would love to have tea with Deveraux, Garwood and Moning. So many questions and ideas!

Here's to an awesome new week!

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

Captain's Log Stardate 201109.7 Supplemental

The weather has just been plain weird. Rain on Sunday, Monday and Tuesday that gives way to 100 temperatures in the afternoon. The A/C at school is turning us into popsicles and then we melt on the way to our cars after class.

On Tues I was able to watch 3 of the required movies and get some reading done for my Women's Health Class.
Today I went in to the Media lab for 4 hours and polished off 5 movies and printed my powerpoints for Thurs. Still waiting on one of our group members to turn his Norms in. I hate group work sometimes! At least he isn't in my group because I am loosing patience real fast!!
Got in the pool for a hot minute, but the heat is really causing me not to want to exercise. I did splurge today...went to Chipotle. It was so yummy!!! Will brown bag it tomorrow.

Well better get back to the books.

Monday, September 5, 2011

Captain's Log Stardate 201109.5

The month has started out great. Survived my first week of school and I am excited to be back and getting things one step closer to graduation.

So far Sudden Bloom has sold 8 Kindle copies. In a week I will receive my proof and once that checks out we can start selling paperback versions. This is so exciting. I enjoy writing all that I have been able to develop in my characters.

In other news I am glad to have made my 5 pound goal and I am now working on the next 5 pounds. My hair is braided and my calendar is excuses.

Tomorrow is the first day of school for the cadets....I am already receiving that it is going to be a great year!
Captain Out.

Thursday, September 1, 2011

Captain's Log Stardate Supplemental

Got in a great workout today....of course that meant I got to campus later than I wanted which meant I had to hike to my classes, thus giving me an additional workout. I guess I am being productive but I am feeling a bit overwhelmed.

Weighed in on Wii Fit Plus and I met my goal of losing 5 to get things down below 245!
One step at a time.

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Captain's Log Stardate 201108.31

Well we have reached the end of August and things are progressing. I have been excited about this next semester at the academy and I know that it will be challenging but fulfilling as well.

The crew is all set to start this new mission, though they have been a bit sluggish of late...trying to draw out the last of the vacation.

I'm ready to adjust to my new schedule. Unfortunately the Commander is always tired which is reeking havoc on my brain and heart. Dealing with things the best I know how and trying to smile.

Decided to send my book to self publishing. Currently it is only in digital form but I hope it will be available for print and download. I am very happy with my work and I look forward to the other stories I want to share. I also hope it will help with expenses and needs around the house. Plus I have to come up with $321 by the middle of September. I thought we had done away with having to use money!! I will have to spend some time looking into scholarships, especially since we will have to have childcare for our youngest.

My exercise schedule has gone to the dogs, the Borg, and the Romulans. I hope soon I'll be able to get something that works and doesn't mean I have to get up at 4 am. Got a great 30 minutes in today, will try to do better. All the reading I must do leave me a bit sluggish...and I have to start tapering off the fiction reading...too much of a distraction.

Here's to the start of a great semester!

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Captain's Log Stardate 201108.25

Survived a shopping away mission with ensign Denyce. I think next year I'll delegate this job to Lt. Commander DuJuana, I need to keep my sanity.

As intel comes in from mission command, I prepare myself to leave behind many of the day to day tasks aboard ship and dedicate my time solely to my new mission. The work will be immense this semester.

Still not quite following my exercise schedule with all the running around I must do getting everyone else ready for all the changes.

I am excited about the next 16 weeks!

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Captain's Log Stardate 201108.23

Doing better with getting things done and staying motivated.
On Saturday we did somethings as a family, some light shopping and taking care of the house.
By Sunday we were rested and ready for the new week.
Monday I volunteered on campus to prepare for the incoming new nursing students and finalized my skin test reading.
Today I walked maybe 2 miles with all that had to happen at orientation. Definitely got my exercise in and it was nice to meet some of the new students and encourage them. I am looking forward to being a mentor this semester. Shows I've grown somewhat, huh!?!
Finally heard from our peds instructor so I raced back over to SDSU health services so I could finish my compliance, because I have clinical on Monday!!!!
My room is mostly organized and I am ready for bed. I have been running everyday this week so far and doesn't look like its going to stop until Saturday!!

Friday, August 19, 2011

Captain's Log Stardate 201108.19

What a week! Okay I know my log should be more official but it has been a challenging week. Ensign Denyce did well at her annual physical and was glad to not have to have any injections. The house is more organized and things are coming together. Had to buy another book for school and will eventually get my parking permit but I am excited to for the start of new semester.

On Tuesday we took off for Long Beach and I spent the day with my girl Danielle who is visiting from Detroit with her three children. We ditched the kids and had lunch then went for manicures and pedicures. It was nice to just relax.

On Wednesday I began the process of installing the Apple computer for mom and moving all her photos and files. Everything went well, except I couldn't get the computer to communicate with the printer. Wore me out.

On Thursday we returned home, I was done with the kids not getting along as well as they should. Was glad to go to the library and start book 5 of the fever last escape before school starts on the 29th.

On Friday I had to take care of compliance things so I could be ready for clinicals beginning at the end of the month. Took care of my Avon clients and felt pretty good. I have to start getting more sleep and rest.

Monday, August 15, 2011

Captain's Log Stardate 201108.15

Been doing a complete overhaul of the ship. Started in the halodeck (family room), then the messhall (dining room) and finally made it to the conference room (living room). Engineering (kitchen) it taking some time, sometimes the nooks and crannies take a lot of time to deal with. Its giving the crew a good workout. Recycling what need to be recycled and disgarding things that are no longer needed. The ship could pass an inspection if we where going to have one. With all the running around the ship I've already taken off a few inches. Its amazing what a little housework will do.

Will be traveling to the LB Quadrant tomorrow. Will be looking up a buddy from the high school days. Will also spend some time with the family as we begin to get things ready for the next semester.

Thursday, August 11, 2011

Captain's Log Stardate 201108.11

Sometimes doing something you don't really want to do can provide just the right amount of motivation to help you accomplish the job and get back on task.

Dusting my family room proved to be the jumpstart I needed. Worked my arms really good, kept me from drifting into boredom and I'm ready to get more accomplished before Starfleet academy takes not just my money, or should I say more money, but take up a majority of my time.

Minus the expenses that I am getting ready to have, I am excited about this new semester and I have hopeful that I will make a major impact.

It was great having all the crew together for mealtime. I do hope we will continue to keep communication and together time a priority over the next few weeks.

Friday, August 5, 2011

Captain's Log Supplemental Stardate 201108.5

Looking back at my first week of August I can say my grade would not be very good if I was giving myself a grade. Seemed like everything got in the way of exercise though I did make better eating choices but I know that won't be reflected on the scale.

My goal for the new week is to really schedule all that I need to do, as well as some enjoyment time, so I can get back on track. I am at my heaviest ever and this is not good, healthwise or any thing else.

Here's to recommitting to being a healthy me and keeping the promise to myself.

Thursday, August 4, 2011

Captain's Log Supplemental Stardate 201108.4

Had to wait for engineering to fix the transmission link up. Went well, components had to be replaced but I was glad for the efficiency that was displayed at things got back to working order.

Cut into my holodeck time but at least that is one less thing wrong with the ship. I'll make up for it tomorrow.

Time is moving faster than I'd like it but I am getting things accomplished.

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Captain's Personal Log Stardate 201108.3

Today started out well. Temperature not so hot and Andrew is adjusting back into the classroom setting. I was all set up to do my exercises when things went haywire with the satellite receiver. I spent more time than I would have liked "chatting" with someone trying to correct the problem. Unfortunately I'll be held hostage in my house waiting for a technician. We'll see what happens.

I am all registered for school, all my required books are purchased and I just need to buy a parking permit. Trying to wait until a week before so my money will have been received. Its amazing how quickly a person can spend money for school. I am getting excited about my new assignments and moving on with my career.

My next goals: get a workout schedule together, finish my resume, and organize my study space.

I've been enjoying my holodeck time, writing my book and been so pleasurable. Now I need to start making headway on my first story I began back in 1997. Maturity and research have a way of helping you make a more realistic story. I have a few people enjoying my current finished work. We'll see what's in store for me next.

Ensign Denyce had a great birthday. Though I don't know what is to come in the next years I am glad that I have been chosen to be her mother and help her on her way to womanhood.

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Captain's Log Stardate 201108.2

Back on track?

One of the things I hate about the heat is that I am unmotivated to exercise. Made sure to do some moving around but my mind was not focused on it.

Wouldn't it be nice if our bodies could do the work while our minds were elsewhere?

Well tomorrow is a new day, a new chance to start fresh.
May I make the most of it and put procrastination in its place.

Monday, August 1, 2011

July 2011 wrapup

Captain's Log Stardate 201107.31
Things have been quiet as we begin to look to August.
Steve and Denyce enjoyed ComiCon as much as could be enjoyed with all the weird changes and inconveniences.
7/25 we visited the San Diego Zoo; Andrew was re-enrolled in preschool.

7/26 did some pre-birthday shopping

7/27 saw Cars 2

7/28 DuJuana and Isaiah came for a visit. Completed my registration for Fall 2011. The commander and I had a date and saw Harry Potter #7 part 2.

7/29 visited the Museum of Natural History. The Commander and I went out again and saw Captain America.

7/30 visited the Nixon library in Yorba Linda and Steve's high school friends in Anaheim. Swimming on a beautiful day is always a plus.

7/31 back home and some shopping as we prepare for back to school.

Friday, July 22, 2011

July 2011 and trip to the Davenport Quadrant

In 14 days we leave for the Davenport, WA Quadrant. I am looking forward to getting away. Doing better, keeping myself busy with some books from my mom and staying active with the kids. They hate "the hill." Once we get back from our trip I aim to get back motivated and finish all the things I started in May. If I really want something I have to put the work in to making it come about.

July 14-19
Andrew did well on his first flight. The pilots were great and everyone was very friendly. For the first few nights Denyce and I bunked together and Steve and Andrew shared the basement. That wouldn't last long. Andrew couldn't stand Steve's snoring so I wound up bunking with Andrew and Steve went to his old room.
Thursday evening we had dinner with Steve's Aunt Doris and Uncle Ed at the Red Rooster restaurant in Reardan.
We went to Mondovi on Friday and visited Loren's family and Les' family. The kids enjoyed the horses, calves, chickens, goats, dogs and rabbits.
On Saturday we enjoyed a rainy Pioneer Days Parade. Andrew enjoyed the park and playing on the merry-go-round. That evening we went to Andy Casper's mom's home for an early celebration of his 50th. Steve got to visit with Ruthy, Tom, Randy, Rusty, Mike and of course Andy. We missed David and Rich being in attendance, especially since this would have been their 30th High School Reunion. Life sometimes causes you to change the priorities and you can't really expect people to pick up where you left off, especially if it was years later.
On Sunday we attended an all area church service on the grounds of the court house...only in a small town would it not be a big deal. Try doing that in CA and there would be lawsuits filed before the new day got going. The four of us took a trip to Seven Bays and drove around the Old Fort. It was amazing to see how much things had changed since I was there in '94.
On Monday we drove to the Trinidad Farms and saw the wheat up close and personal. The kids loved the grasshoppers. We spent a leisurely last evening at home.
Tuesday we made a dash over to Steve school EWU, where he got a t-shirt, then dashed to the airport. Of course in our rushing we learned that Delta had delayed our flight by an hour and there could be a chance of missing our connection to San Diego. After using our $24 vouchers and boarding our flight, we made it to Salt Lake City an hour after schedule. Unfortunately, Steve was busy with phone calls and I was watching the bags, that while the kids were seated and waiting we left "baby" Andrew's lovey of 4 years behind. He will be greatly missed and we will be heartsick about it for a while. We did make our connection to San Diego...of course it was the same plane we had left Spokane it. If I had known we might have just stayed on the plane and we might still have baby with us. Andrew is taking it well, has some sad moments but he does have others loveys to keep him occupied. We made it back to San Diego at 6:20 and I was glad we did laundry the day before. After some adjustment we seem to be settling in. It was a great trip and I hope we can have regular vacations from now on.

Thursday, July 21, 2011

June 2011 Quadrant

Ensign Denyce has completed 6th grade and will need to work on a few things to be successful in the 7th.  She received many awards for her hard work and had some of her poetry be a part of the school anthology.  She enjoyed Disneyland (June 15th) and I was glad to have the day with her.

Ensign Andrew has been adjusting to be stationed home and I have found some fun and educational things to keep him busy.  We kept the celebration small for his 4th birthday, enjoying a day at Chuck E. Cheese and riding his new bike.

Commander Steve continues to carryout his duties flawlessly and I am thankful for his continued support.  I know he carried an extra burden right now and I hope once Ensign Andrew returns to duty I'll be able to ease the burden somewhat.

My workouts have become almost invisible with having to keep the kids busy and not waste away in front of the computer or television.  I sometimes wish I could clone myself...I could really use the help.  My 40th birthday came and went.  No big deal, just as I expected.  My emotional level is very high, I have been venturing into trouble territory and I know I better deal with my "issues" soon or there is going to be real trouble.  Losing my motivation level again.  Sometimes if you want something you have to do it yourself and expecting others to (feel in the adjective: love you, respect you, care about you) enough sometimes just doesn't happen.  I shouldn't have to plan my out party...right??  I know, this too shall pass.  I think that might be why I have no zeal when I work out.  I am in my "going through the motions" phase again.  I know things are going to fall into place soon, patience is a hard thing to master.

On a happier note was glad to visit with everyone at my sister's graduation from  Antioch University with a Master's in Psychology.  I pray the job she is supposed to have presents itself quickly and everything else her heart desires is on its way.

This month passed us by way too quickly.

Spring 2011 2nd Semester Do Over Week Eleven to Sixteen and May

Week 11 (Apr 10-16)
Survived exam #2.  My stress level is going through roof with my clinical group.  I just don't understand why these kids just can't just hang in there and not get so worked up about the staff.  People are people and you have to make sure you don't set yourself up to be picked on.  Losing my zeal for Research class.  Doing my best to be a part of the group but they are meeting on days I have clinical and I really get any feedback from anyone.  I hate being left behind...the consequences of my actions and some inactions.  Classmates don't automatically mean friends.  Got my final evaluation in on time, piece of cake.  Glad my final weeks have been positive with the staff and patients.  Will start working on my resume and looking for a part time job soon.

Week 12 (Apr 17-23)
Got a great peptalk from my clinical professor, but I'm still feeling the burn out.  Doing too much reading of Fan Fiction these days and its a good distraction but an addictive one.  I gotten some great ideas for my story, which is almost done.  Our group did our presentation and things went well.  We unfortunately didn't finish all the groups so some will have to do their presentations before the final exam.
My final evaluation for clinical went well and Prof. Muehlbauer expressed her desire for me to be a TA for her in my fifth semester.  After all we endured and survived I look forward to working with her again.

Week 13 (Apr 24-30)
All quiet, unfortunately I am unmotivated to study for my final exam.  Part of me is just tired and the other is Star Trek fixated.  The Fan Fiction is too much of a distraction now and I can't seem to get enough.  I know I am heading for trouble.  Maybe I am a little anxious about my upcoming birthday?!  I honestly think is due to loneliness.  I had such a great cohort going and now its gone.  I believe I am pouring my sadness into the Sci-Fi Fantasy but its not helping me with my studies.

Week 14 (May 1-7)
Well I totally disregarded my schedule to study for Research...showed in my final exam grade...I'll be getting a B in that class instead of an A.  :0(
I am on track with Med/Surg studying.  Now that clinical is behind me I have no excuse or distractions.  Yes, I even put the Fan Fiction away for now.
Had a great time at the presentation for Nurse's Week.  Having Dr. Michael Bleich address our class was a wonderful experience.  Later at the his lecture at the Aztec Athletics Center, I was bouncing off the wall.  I fully meant my comment about keeping out "New Car Smell" as nurses and not falling by the wayside in what we do.  Just the additional motivation I needed to wrap up this semester.

Week 15 (May 8-14)
I am all alone this week.  Trying not to be sad.  My workouts have been sporadic at best.  I haven't gained any weight but losing is not progressively happening.  My heart is adrift at the moment.  Miss my cohort.  Dr. Robinson has given me are final answer...enjoy summer with my family and make new friends.  Easier said then done.

Week 16 (May 15-21)
Final exam.  Did great, got an B in the class.  Dr Gates seemed to want to get me to say it was okay to keep me behind.  I don't think I'll ever be able to say it, agree with it or except it.  Hurts way too much and I feel so awful about it.  I should have fought harder and got others to help me not get left behind.  I did tell him that I really couldn't compare the semesters since things were so different.  I was with a group of immature people this time around and I had to do a lot of babysitting that really worked my nerves.  Also my teachers were too comfortable with, telling me things like I was their colleague instead of their student.  It really caused an increase of pressure on me that I did not like and was unsure how to get rid of.
On the positive, meeting Prof. M was the most rewarding event of the whole semester.  I hope to find someone like her if I don't get to see her again to be a mentor to me.  I will have to drop her a line from time to time.  Also on the positive my grade was changed.  Seemed others complained about the getting a grade they didn't earn just to justify their not moving ahead.  I think that hurt the most.  I am glad to have my GPA back!  Which came at the right time I was awarded a $1000 scholarship.  That got me motivated again and I might take a summer class.  I really just need A's from here on out to keep my GPA up and really show how much I want to be the best at what I do.

May 22-31
Semester Do Over is now behind me.  I am working on getting acquainted with my new church family and all the changes that are happening.  I had thought I would take a summer course but it was geared for RN-BSN students and I had so much trouble trying to enroll if just really unmotivated me to be there.  I'll hold out, especially since I am going need an additional 3 credits to keep my fulltime status.  The Commander is ready for me to branch out but since Ensign Andrew will be taking 2 months leave it will have to wait until August.  I can now focus my attention on reading and some light television watching.

Thursday, April 7, 2011

Spring 2011 2nd Semester Do Over Week Eight-Nine-Ten

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Things at the academy have been quite busy and a little stressful as we march toward the end of the semester.  It seemed everything was due at once.  I am looking forward to just studying for my exam early in April.  My clinical professor has been quite pleased with my work and ask repeatedly asked that I consider being her TA during my fifth semester.  It is a little overwhelming but I am thankful for everything falling into place after such as disastrous semester last year.  I'm trying not to spend so much time with my professors and a bit more with my "new" classmates since I won't be catching up with my original cohorts.  I am a little sad that I won't graduate in May, but hey at least I will graduate in the same year, just fall instead of spring.

I don't always understand my classmates.  They seem to think everything is supposed to be rosy and that is just not realistic.  They don't realize how good we actually have it, compared to my previous clinical experience.  We are at a teaching hospital and the nursing, for the most part, enjoy us and try to teach us how to be stronger nurses.

Finally got back on the exercise train with Zumba and MJ the experience for our Wii.  I am loving it and working up a sweat!  Being able to exercise on my own time really makes a difference and now that I have no more night classes, having my evenings allows me to get a good cool down before bed.

Week Nine
Shore Leave!  This R&R was sorely needed!  Though I made sure to study while sleeping in.  Took cadet Andrew over to Disneyland and CA adventure and we had a great time.  Unfortunately cadet Denyce had not received vacation clearance so she was unable to accompany us.  She wants to keep her perfect attendance so I will have to make sure to do something special for her when I get the free time again.
The Commander's parents came in on Thursday so we're looking forward to visiting with them and his sister Gayle also traveling down for a few days.  On Sunday we got together with everyone, all the nieces and nephews with the adults and had dinner and then brought just Gayle and the inlaws back to the house for a visit.

Week Ten
Back to school for me and cadet Denyce is on vacation.  I hate that there isn't really much for her to do since no one else is on leave like her.  Monday went well, picked my patients just fine and looked forward to being busy.  Tuesday my patients kept me very busy and were very personable.  One got discharged, wished me luck and I had to select another patient.  Wednesday was another good day, a shortened one, and after a sit-down with my professor [who now knows I am a repeat student] I will make sure to write down information I take for other nurses and let them enter in to make sure I provide correct communication.  I want to keep my reputation intact and also I need to make sure I do the right thing as well.  Being busy is never a good enough excuse for missing something or not doing the right thing.  I'll be carrying sticky notes with me from now on so that I hand any and all message to whomever I work with and make sure not to cause or be any trouble. 

Enjoyed dinner with the Commander's parents at VIP and a quiet evening at home.  This weekend it will be all about studying and being prepared for my exam on Monday.  Maybe I can take cadet Denyce to the bookstore to spend her money she received from my mother.
Must get up and do some exercises to keep my brain awake.  Well here's to another week on the journey.
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Saturday, March 12, 2011

Spring 2011 2nd Semester Do Over Week Eight

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What a great week, though it started off quite stressful.  Staying in bed all weekend to rest and get well really made a difference.  I'm glad I prepared early for Sim Lab, but the experience was a great as in previous years.  It was nice to save on gas this week with only having to drive to the VA once this week.  I feel a bit disjointed with having been off the floor for almost two weeks.  Anyway, did some studying on Monday and on Tuesday.  Professor M let us out early on Tuesday so I spent 4 hours reviewing and reviewing.  It worked great!  I am so glad that I passed the ECG final and I can now go home an relax on Tuesday evenings.  I know Steve will appreciate having me around in the evenings.

Wednesday was a very long day.  I got up at 4 am and got going to the hospital to pick my two patients.  Actually worked out okay, I did eat my breakfast but I didn't get to brush my teeth or put on any makeup.  I really need two hours to do a really good workup on my worksheets and be prepared but it worked out well in the long run.  My patients had pneumonia and one was preparing for a CABG, both were diabetic.  I wound up really working up a sweat.  My pneumonia patient was pretty mello but the other really allowed me to practice talking and educating.  He knew he needed to change, he just didn't have the heart or will to change.  At 63 living with his 93 year old patients, I think he needed to start listening to the still small voice.  We did have good conversations and was inspired to really start thinking about taking care of patients.  Of course passing my ECG exam the night before really had me pumped as well.  Lunch with my clinical crew was a bit trying.  For some reason they believe that the nursing staff is supposed to be accommodating to them and welcome them with open arms.  That is not life or realistic.  True we are there to learn but we aren't supposed to be babysat or become BFFs with these people.    I had become so fed up with their complaining that I sent out an email to them all about "How to deal with difficult people."  I don't know if it will help or not but I do hope that by the time we graduate that they will grow and realize that they have got to get over it.  It did do something for me.  My professor was go grateful that she told me that if I decide I want to be a TA in my fifth semester, I'm in.  I just thank the Lord for marking out my steps.

Spent the rest of Wednesday evening and most of Thursday morning preparing for my EBP exam.  I'm not worried about it but I do want to do well and keep my grades up.  Got to school early and after buying my scantron I sought a space in the ever crowded library/study center.  Found a great cubicle and went over everything.  I was so glad I read the articles.  Now if my group can get there act together so we can complete our final project and be done with it.  The exam wasn't bad and I did very well.  Thank you Jesus!

Touched bases with my favorite former teacher Dr Robinson and let her know that things are going well with N300 reboot and that things are falling into place.  She did tell me that I wouldn't be able to go to summer school, they are leaving it to the 2nd degree students so I'll be free to do some other things with the family.  I'd love to go to Las Vegas but that may not be in the budget since I am not working anymore.  I am officially done with all my bookkeeping and I am glad that things went well, a little bumpy but Steve is doing great with getting used to his business and running things.  I believe as long as he keeps his head about him and prayerfully deals with his sibling he should be fine.

Glad to be down to only two classes and have to just do my readings and reviewing  to prepare for my last three exams of the semester.  With the extra time I'll be sure to play with the kids more and take time to rest and take care of me.

Had the family weigh in today and we weren't too bad.  Had to make some adjustments since Andrew has grown to 41 inches!  Denyce needs to be more consistent and I need to get back on the bandwagon now that I am feeling better.  Steve needs to firm up but we'll need to see what is going on with his muscles.

Well time to get some more reading done.  Its nice to have a calm weekend for once without any pressure to have to get anything done immediately.  I have been making plans for Spring Break.  Legoland with Andrew and maybe Disneyland with Denyce?  We'll see how the money goes, it might be Legoland with Denyce and Seaworld with Andrew.  Since my in-laws are coming into town I don't want to schedule too much but I do want to spend some quality time with the kids.
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Saturday, March 5, 2011

Spring 2011 2nd Semester Do Over Week Seven

Captain's Log Stardate 201103.5

This has been a great week!  I did well on my exam, unfortunately I made some silly mistakes and probably could have almost gotten a perfect score.  It was nice to sleep in on Tuesday and Wednesday since I had off floor rotation.  The nurses were really nice and the staff in Palliative Care should the true essence of caring.  I am not ready to work in that unit, made me way too emotional.  Special Procedures was interesting, again it was nice working with people who wanted you around.  Didn't do much but did see some interesting things.  Was glad for the easier week.
Now I am having trouble getting motivated to study for my ECG and EBP classes.  I must refocus so I can get ready for semester three.  I do hope to catch up to my original group but I have a feeling I might have to let that go.  Summer school I am sure would be stressful and I might need that time to spend with my family and really get all my information locked into my brain.   
Forsook my workouts to goals this week is to get back on schedule.  I do know that it will be a little easier once my Tuesday night class is over.
Time to hit the books.
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Friday, February 25, 2011

Spring 2011 2nd Semester Do Over Week Six

Captain's Log Stardate 201102.25
It is time for midterms and everyone is feeling the pressure.  I've had some many things due this week, my head is spinning.  Sometimes I think the professors at the Academy are just out to get us and drive us crazy.  I am glad I don't have to drive over to the hospital three days this month and I am off floor next week.  Things are going to be challenging the week of my ECG final and also my first exam in EBP but I am not to worried.  I do have a little anxiety about the upcoming exam on Monday.  This will be the second time I am taking it and I am not looking to fail it again.  Of course I am sick again but not as bad as last year.

Crewman Andrew was first to start coughing and Cadet Denyce and the Commander have followed.  Of course the Commander shared it with me and I have been working overtime to keep it minimal.  I feel pretty good but the throat and sniffles are getting pretty old. 

My workouts have become non-existant again!  Once my Tuesday evening class is successfully completed I look forward to having my life back and having time to relax and exercise.

The Commander's transition seems to be going well.  Had to deal with some very "strange" antics from his former partners [some people just do not have any good sense] but that has all come to an end.  I have just a few more things to complete before April 15th and I am officially done.  Glad I took care of paying myself last year.  Prayfully the money that was spoken for will not be touched by those who aren't supposed to touch it and all will fall into place.  So glad I can start completely concentrating on my school work and possible a health care position real soon.

I am not going to think too far ahead, once I have successfully passed this course then I will think about summer school.  If I am eligible I'll be able to catch up to my cohorts otherwise it will be a December Graduation in 2012. 

Clinicals is going well and I am glad that I'm working with nurses that like us and are willing to teach us.  My patients have been unique to say the least...I'm so glad I don't want to work with men on a regular basis but it has definitely been a learning experience.

Time to get back to the books.
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Saturday, February 19, 2011

Spring 2011 2nd Semester Do Over Week Five

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Today is the Commander's 48th birthday.  We had a nice time at a little burger joint, Fuddrucker's, and he enjoyed his birthday brownie a la mode.  I will have to make sure I spend some time on the holodeck working off my chicken sandwich.

The week went pretty good.  Lost my keys in one of my bags...yes the stress is building, but was glad I didn't really lose them.  I feel like I am understanding my classes but it also seem fleeting.  Like its there but can mysterious vanish.  My goal was to review every day...those plans were dashed as I began to work on my Care Plan that is due on Sunday and my Case Study that I must present on Tuesday.  It didn't help that my group didn't get my the information I needed for our Thursday presentation until 3 days prior.  Nothing like flying by the seat of your pants.  This is why I hate group projects.  I know sometimes you have to work with people you would prefer not to but in this case when a grade is on the line and the individuals still do not seem to care you want to hurt someone.  Thankfully I was creative enough to make it work and the teacher was pleased.

My workouts are so uneventful.  I'm not putting on any weight but my mind is so consumed with upcoming exams I am not taking any additional weight off either.  I am eating healthier and by taking my lunch each week to the VA hospital I am saving money.  Gas is so expensive right now I don't have any extra to waste.

The crew is growing like weeds.  Ensign Andrew needs more uniforms in size 5!  What are we going to do when he does turn 5!!
Cadet Denyce's sense of style is going through a change as well.  She wanted to give away or throw away perfectly good clothes and could not offer a reason why.  We are trying to take it in stride.

Clinicals was much calmer this week.  Picked a patient with a heart condition so I could get some extra study time in.  Glad I only have to shuttle over there once with my craft next week.  IVs should be interesting  and then we start the off floor rotations.  I am ready, as well as ready to take two patients....of course I've handled three but I'm not putting that out there just yet.

Okay PADDs are calling my name and I better get to it.
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Saturday, February 12, 2011

Spring 2011 2nd Semester Do Over Week Four

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I know what exhaustion feels like and I am not looking forward to it, but I must hang in there until March 8th.  I have so much to do I feel like I don't know where to start.  Why do teachers feel the need to give busy work?  If they would just teach the class a lot of the stress and pressure we undergo would be alleviated. 

N300- survived another lecture.  Had office hours with him to make sure I'm organizing my thinking in the right way.  I still didn't feel settled about what he wants.  I don't understand the vibe I get from him......I guess we're just not going to have that kind of relationship.  I am loving, for the most part, the nursing staff at the VA.  They are so helpful and supportive.  I will strive to always do my best.  Picked my patient and was able to get home and start getting organized for Tues and Weds.

Unfortunately my patient left the building!  I had to pick a entirely new patient.  This was not how I wanted to start my week out with my professor.  The nurses made one suggestion and then changed it entirely.  My patient was off the floor most of  Tuesday but it allowed me the chance to help my classmates out on the floor.  I do love the TAs we have on Tues and Weds.  Having Kelsey and Sheridan last week and Lindsay this week have been awesome.  If anything I am getting out of this back tracking, its being around all these 5th semester students and gleaning as much as possible as I can from them.

I really felt like a stepchild once I got to ECG class.  I like to sit in the front and the place I sat in last week was occupied.  How quickly they forget about you.  I won't be sitting in the back though, it was a challenge to hear anything that was going on and I want to hear and really learn.  I am not taking my second chance for granted.  I was glad that I did some reading and I will make sure to practice since we don't have class next week.

Wednesday was a bit better.  My professor was adamant that I give an injection to my patient.   My patient did have to endure a bone biopsy, which my professor didn't quite understand why, she kept questioning me and I began to feel like I didn't understand something I thought I did.  Once she looked at my patient's record she then began to get a better understanding and realized she was drawing incorrect conclusions about my patient, possibly mixing in him up with another patient with similarities on the floor.  We didn't get out of post conference until 3:40!  I didn't get home until 4:15 which is always a constant concern on Tuesdays because I do not want to be late for  ECG class.  This too shall pass!!
My clinical group is so strange sometimes!  One of the students got upset and felt like the LVN was going overboard on her.  In my opinion the student just doesn't "Listen."  They are so quick to say, "Yea I know, or I got it," but they don't really listen.  Don't tell me you know, do it.  They do too much talking, I think I might only eat lunch with them once a week.  I can't stand self-profilers.  You are already in nursing school, time to stop tooting your horn and just learn.  I'm glad the group project is over....though I did mess up on the instructions a little, the professor did not hold it against us.  I don't want to work with individuals that prefer to sleep in instead of getting the job done and then when we do get together is at 3:30 in the afternoon on a Friday.  People who don't have lives or any since of true responsibility.  I have a ship and crew to run and things that could have been done earlier should have been.  Once I do my case study I look forward to not having to deal with others crazy schedules.  Except when it comes to my EBP class.  They are all meeting together after their Peds class....I wonder if any of them will remember to email me?  Of course I am supposed to be doing the presentation......this is going to be an interesting week.

Did horrible with exercise this week.  I at right and got my water in but exercise was a fiasco.  That time of the month left me more tires especially after the lack of sleep since Sunday.  I was glad to not have to meet with my group on  Thursday.  Many wanted to study for the Sat final and I was glad to save gas and hassle of trying to park and just stay home and study.

I was able to get 14 episodes of the Pirates of Dark Water recorded to DVD, no thanks to the Commander ruining a disc the day before by his touching and moving things from the way I had them.  I was furious and I had to just walk away from the project entirely.  I'll start moving more and more during spring break but it was great to get 8 hours freed up until then.

Almost all done with my bookkeeping job and will be able to just focus on my studies for a while.  I know the right externship and job are out there for me and I pray I'll be ready for them when the time comes.

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Spring 2011 2nd Semester Do Over Week Three

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Time flies when you're having fun.  Am I having fun?  So much to do and I feel like I'm am always trying to catch up.  Began reading for my ECG class.  The information is not hard but there is a lot of information that must be learned.  Survived the Huge Class but I am so advanced for some of the stuff that we are doing.  Now if I can just convey that advancement on my exams!!  My clinical professor was the lecturer on Breast Cancer.  Not too much changed from her lecture last semester.

Me and my carpool buddy left at 5:45 am and we got to the hospital about 6:10 am.  No more being late for us.  I like being able to access the computers before anyone else arrives.  My patient this week had a Dx of Failure to Thrive.  It will be interesting to see what is all entailed in this diagnosis.  He has an ileostomy too so I'll be learning some new techniques on care and management.  I actually had a good two days with my patient.  Once I got him showered and refreshed, he was like a new person.  I believe once he starts eating and taking care of himself, his malnutrition should be behind him.

Last Thursday I had went and talked to Dr Robinson, I had seen Prof. Lischke that day too, and they both really made me feel so much better.  I know not passing was mostly my fault but it really gnaws at you when no one seems to feel for you or even understand what you are going through.  I'm getting better about dealing with my class mates but its a challenge.  I am a private person most of the time and this seems to be hanging out the window.  I must make sure to send Dr. Robinson a thank you note.  She made me feel like we were good friends sitting around having tea and catching up.  She is someone I would enjoy learning from on a regular basis.

Survived the EBP class, it was interesting to see the other groups presentations.  My clinical professor was the guest lecturer again.  It would be cool to go to NIH and be a part of a research group, but I don't think I can afford it.  It was kinda neat seeing my clinical professor 4 days in a row.  I think I am going to like her.

Trying to get my DVD recorder to work the way I want it to.  I'm running out of room on the DVR.  I've got the discs, now to find the time.

Our new church, Celebrate Church, will start on Sunday at 10:30 am.  It will be weird to sleep in on Sundays.  I'll try to get some studying in before church.  We will miss Pastor Jim and Frieda, but I know there is another plan for them where they will be blessed.  I know will be praying over the spiritual growth of my children and family.

Looking forward to my mom coming down in two weeks.  Steve needs a little break and it will be nice to spend time alone with him.

Did good with my exercises this, my weight is not going up.  The long Mon to Weds stretch though only leave me motivated to sleep.

All in all it was a great week and I look forward to more of the same.
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Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Spring 2011 2nd Semester Do Over Week Two

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On Monday it was weird being in a class of over 125 persons.  I am going to appreciate my small clinical group on Tuesdays and Wednesdays.  I will try to have a good attitude but I am just not at the point where I can forgive my teacher.  He really had me thinking he would work with me and was on the fence on whether to move me on or not.  Depression and despondency have tried to become constant companions.  I know eventually I will have to forgive and let it go, but the pain is still too fresh and the wound much too deep.

On Tuesday my carpool buddy thought we have left in enough time to get to the VA for our orientation but unfortunately 8 AM seems to be the time that everyone goes to work or school so we were late by 5 minutes.  The progressed well but I never want to be late ever again, especially after learning that someone failed clinical after being tardy.  I still don't have my access codes or passwords.  I'm a little excited about starting to treat patients.  I am going to put this time to good use and really solidify my skills and become a very strong nurse.  We've already been assigned group activities and I am hopeful that we will do well in all we need to turn in.  I am little excited about next Tuesday and the starting of my EKG class but I am not looking forward to the very long day and losing my exercise time.  At least it is only for 5 weeks.

On Wednesday my carpool buddy and I got to the VA early, we were the first one on the floor.  I'll try to remember to bring things to read from now on.  I shadowed a very independent nurse and it was nice getting to see how the computer system works and how entering in data was great experience.  After some post conference directions, we learned how to use the glucometer and the administration finally got their act together and I received my access codes and user id.  That really worked out because if I had not received my codes I would have had to wait until 5 pm when the rest of the class got to the VA to have one of them sign me in and then I could use the computers to look up my patient information. 

I have my first assignment due on Sunday.  My goal is to finish it by Friday, all my assignments for the future too, so that I don't miss the Sunday Midnight deadline.  I've decided to do it as computer logs just to keep it interesting.  I still have decided if I want to disclose my failure yet or not.

Getting in some great exercise: Mon- 30 mins cardio, Tues- 19 mins strength training, Weds- 54 mins. (27 cardio and 27 strength).  After class tomorrow I'll pick Denyce up early (she's going to the opera) and get my workout in during the afternoon while she's doing homework.  I am going to have to really pay attention to what I eat.  My glucose level was 147!  All I had was two cookies with salad and oranges.  I didn't even eat any ice cream yesterday.  The scale wasn't my friend either but at this point I am going by how my clothes feel and not any particular number.

It has been a long day, but a good day.  Time to do so reading and then shut down the "super computer."
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Friday, January 21, 2011

Spring 2011 2nd Semester Do Over Week One

Captain's Personal Log Stardate: 201101.21
Things have been slowly but surely starting to fall into place. It has been weird being around fresh 2nd semester cadets, I feel old. Seeing my cohorts on Thursday after FINALLY finding a parking space was a bit emotional. I truly felt like a slacker. This too shall pass. I am dreading having to explain why I am not in my "clinicals" with everyone else. Lord give me strength. I am all compliant and free to work with patients. Was very joyful to learn that my Hep B antibodies are where they need to be. It was a bit unsettling last year to learn I didn't have enough antibodies.

The Commander is underway on is mission and things aren't quite smooth yet, I do know that he will do fine and everything will work out.

Fitness-wise, getting back into the swing of things. Lost 3 pounds so far but I have a lot of ground to cover to make up for my "depression" incident. I want to get withing 20 pounds of my ultimate goal by my birthday. I know I can do it.

Time for a jog on the holodeck.
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Thursday, January 13, 2011

Captain's Personal Log 201101.13

Happy New Year. The Commander has been busy getting ready for his new mission. Crewman Andrew is enjoying preschool and Ensign Denyce is adjusting to middle school life.

This past away mission left me drained and unmotivated. Took some time off to just relax, reflect and get re-motivated. I will not let depression get the best of me. The holodeck and a few good books have been providing a much needed escape but in two weeks it will be back to business of keeping the ship running the way its supposed to run.

Hard to believe I'll have a milestone birthday this year! Gotta make sure I do something special.
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